FORGIVE THE PAST AND STOP BEING A GHOST OF YOURSELF

One of the things that has stuck with me the most in my lifetime is the fact that forgiveness is essential for mental and physical health.   Throughout the years of my professional training and experience I observed, over and over, the price that a person pays for bearing grudges, being intolerant, vengeful -  and worse -  from the people who walked through my clinic doors.


As life unfolded for me, I found myself becoming lost at one point in the journey.  Too much introjection of others' grief overwhelmed my sense of balance, and a series of devastating emotional blows pretty much wiped me out.  Consequently, I forgot a lot of what I had been teaching, and began to live a nightmare existence - becoming a ghost of my former self.  Too much baggage to lug around.  Haunted by the pain. Unable to move on.


One August night, walking the sunset beach at San Gregorio, California, I had an experience that forever changed my life.  Gone was the feeling of hollow emptiness, of  living on the gray plane of semi existence.  In it's place, a bright, new beginning appeared in a flash of green light as the sun was sinking.   Someone called it  " The Diaphane".   When I had recovered from the shock of that event, and the after images that persisted for days had faded, I found my tastes, interests,  preferences refining daily.  A thirst for inner spiritual awareness became my new "obsession" and my world.


Since that transcendant moment in my life, I have come to see that one's soul always remembers the most shining moment in it's life.   As such, this "spiritual self image" can become a bridge from where you are - to who you think and want yourself  to be -  if the timing is right for you.   You begin to live your truth for the outside world to see.    It is important to make the results worthy of your time.


 In order to get there, I had to start down the "Forgiveness Path", and clear the air with everyone in my life.  It involved letters, emails, phone calls, connecting through social media and so forth.  When I had done wrong, I sought forgiveness as well.  The two way exchange of energy, when possible, was essential for full closure. 


 Forgiveness is an easy word to pronounce, and a welcome way to bring  relief  from the suffocating past.   I do it routinely, just to clear the air of any shades of doubt.    Here is my mantra:  I forgive myself, 100% unconditionally, I forgive xxxxxx 100% unconditionally, I am at peace with  myself, the world and everyone in it.  Selah.  Amen.    You can recite it during meditation or as a simple exercise daily.   You will love your new self.  Guaranteed.